“…I will go to the altar of God, to God, the Source of all my joy, I will praise You with the harp, Oh God, My God.” Psalm 43:4 (NLT)
Have you ever tried to get blood from a turnip? Water from a rock? Maybe tried to catch lightning in a bottle?
All of these are impossible tasks-we may think someone would be crazy to try any of the above. Why are they wasting their time? What do you think they are going to get out of it? We would shake our heads and move on because we know that is an impossible feat.
I have been trying to do something like the above without even realizing it. I have been trying to get love, security, and compassion from people instead of from God.
I would not have said I was doing that, but as I have walked through situations where I have allowed my emotions to overtake my actions, this truth has come bubbling to the surface. Actually it has come screeching out of my heart like the ugly monster it is.
Maybe you have been there too.
When I feel insecurity coming on and I want to do anything to fix it, I read this verse: “…I will go to the altar of God, to God (alone), the SOURCE of all my joy.”
As I train my brain to live above and outside of my feelings and emotions, this verse has been invaluable to me. It answers all the questions. I am taking action – going – to Him. When I go to Him, I am avoiding going to another person to fill my cup. I am avoiding hurting another person with my unedited feelings.
Notice I am going to His altar, a place that represents my humanity and His Divinity coming together. I cannot get out of my feelings with effort or human understanding. I need His Divine power to overcome me so I can live out the fruit of the spirit regardless of my emotions, pain, or sorrow.
I am going to God alone. I am not at a point to share with anyone else yet. Remember our hearts are so deceitful, we cannot even know what is in them (Jeremiah 17:9). This allows me to hear from the heart of God before I hear from another person.
We focused on the beginning of this verse, “I will go to the altar.” Now we move on to the last part which states, “God is the SOURCE of ALL of my joy.” He alone is the source – the beginning, the foundation, where my joy comes from. Not just part of it, all of it. This removes any expectation from another person to fulfill any needs that they are not meant to fill.
Our needs are valid. God created us as humans with emotions, needs, and desires. He also created us to become “like a deer panting for water” (Psalm 42:1). We will never be satisfied until He is the water that quenches our thirst. He is the Source, the One who can fill our desires, heal our emotions, and provide our needs.
The last part of the verse states we will praise God with our harp.
As situations arise, we want to attack them with feelings of insecurity or pain. As our emotions begin to drown us, let us make a commitment to handle it God’s way.
What is helping me is to go to the altar, to remember and receive my source is in Christ, which in turn helps change my heart posture. Then I desire to linger with Him and that turns to praising Him!
We have the choice. We can stand as beggars holding out our cup and asking for others to fill it, or we can allow His love to be our Source, and we become like a fountain and are able to douse others with His love.
We can sit at the feet of Jesus with peace and allow His love to be enough.
“Father, help us to run to you through this life and allow You to be our Source PERIOD. Just You and nothing or no one else.”
For His Glory
Terrie Tollerson (www.TerrieTollerson.com)
TRBC Women’s Life









